I sometimes wonder what it would've been like if I'd never met you. If I had never talked to you, smiled, or laughed with you. If I had never said yes when you asked me that question. My life would be so different right now. I wouldn't be so moody, bipolar, or up and down because of you. I'd probably have more friends and more of a social life. My grades would maybe be slightly better, and I'd focus more on practicing. Truth is, I'm willing to drop all of that for you.

You're different to me. You're not perfect, but I was willing to accept your imperfections. I talked, you listened. I complained, you sympathized. I cried, you made me smile. You were always there. That's what I love. Of course, there are so many other reasons why I want to be with you, but I'm sure you already know them. You're the only person I can depend on. You care about me regardless of the situation. Especially after I got scared when those two guys were outside my house. You know what happened before, you were upset, but you still managed to calm me down and soothe me.

After every mistake I made, you were still willing to accept me. You still loved me through every single day. Even when we were apart. No one can understand the love we have together. Numerous people have criticized our relationship and I lost a lot of friends because of us. But I still wanted to be with you through all of that. I didn't care what people thought of us. We were happiest around each other anyway.

It seemed like the whole world was against us at some point. There was a time when I almost gave up hope, but you helped me realize that we're still going strong. We've shared so many memories together. We've shared laughs and tears, but they were worth it. I'd never want anyone else but you, because you're the only guy who I've loved and still love. I'm sorry for all of my mistakes, I'm sorry for all the shit I've put you through, and I'm sorry for all the times I made you upset. I'm sorry that we're not as close as we should be, and I'm sorry for hurting you when you needed me most. I'm sorry for you losing your trust in me, and I'm sorry I get jealous easily. I'm sorry for everything, love. I know it'll take time for you to rekindle your trust and more importantly, us.

Right now, I can only hope for what the future holds for us. I want us to be together forever and ever and ever and even after that, like we promised. We made plans. I'm not letting anyone get in the way of us. I want you and only you.

I'm sorry.

I love you.